at night driving back to
silence, 2nd year, I should know this
I could put on music but
if the stereo decides to change
its own volume again, I'll lose my shit.
decide on the album that was playing
the first time I had evidence of ghosts.
maybe not solid proof but still.
now I'm certain. almost certain.
3 or 4 times waking up paralyzed
as if I were in the grip of something
threatening to arrest my speech
vocal chords moved to scream,
but I'll never know if sound came
there is more evidence now
I'm as certain about this as I am about
anything else. which isn't completely.
ghosts are fine as long as they are not moving
through you like gales of wind, while
you grasp for covers, shuddering and struggling
to make sound loud enough something to wake yourself up from
this very solid and occupied space
between falling and dreaming